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Maybe eccentric and deviant, this I am. Celebrate this I do very much. I am sapient, a man, a boy, an animal, virtuous, Jedi, and witkh. Passing one of the couple crossroads in my life, I am. The Goddess says Tay Tay is apart of my future… intimately. Maybe this is true and I believe that it is. However I also believe that I am often wrong; And, I hardly ever seem to know that I am right, or wrong, when in the moment.

I am working on my own religious path. I call it religious because the afterlife is very much apart of it. However, a focus of mine is on life and how the means justify the end. I love romance stories because a happy ending {Comedy} is virtually guaranteed. I despise tragedies, life can be tragic enough without trying to be ‘entertained’ by one.

Order of the Jedi is my religious path. Jedi only because I see that the ‘Force’ really is everything. It is the membrane that matter and energy is reacted from. Frequencies of waves in this membrane determine what the material/energy is. Everything is simply an elaborateness mental construct, an illusion.

First phase of my life was growing up an becoming self aware. That ended at around the time I graduated High School. However, the end of the second phase of my life is when I became truly sapient. A dog can be self-aware and it still often does thing that are bad for it, like think antifreeze is taste.

A very deep and dark depression has been my orbit for the first two phases of my life. Recently I found a way out of it. However once you let the Dark Side in, forever will it dominate your destiny. I am still working on feeling that I am beautiful; But in order for Tay Tay to love me I have to love myself first… well maybe not but it’s a better place to start than obsessing and stalking. laugh

Actually recognizing and learning from the repeating patterns in my life is what marks the end of my second phase. I have been living with my parents with very little income. Luckily my parents both have very well paying jobs and are excellent at making themselves indispensable to their employer. I thankful for them, and this because this allows me to be less distracted with the more menial tasks of life.

President Barry Soetoro would see me as a vote for him because I am unemployed and could get lots of money from the state. He is the Food-stamp President after all. However, I value individual liberty innately and reject almost all government benevolence. Actual charities are more efficient and help more people than the government ever has, is, or can. Furthermore, the Free Market {instead of crony capitalism} has risen more people out of poverty than any other economic system invented by Terrans.

So yes, like Tay Tay I am seen as a Republican now more often than not. Yet I despise a lot of Rockefeller Republicrats too. The Establishment has run both parties and this country towards the edge of a cliff by continually ‘compromising’ with evil.

Anyhow, back on topic. Marriage, family, children, home, success, and abundance are the primary forces in the third and longest phase of my life. Longest because I believe marriage is for life. Maybe things change later but that is irrelevant to the attitude you approach marriage with.

Today I welcome a soul-mate into my life as my wife, and vice verse. A soul-mate is as free as I am to live any life they want. They can be anyone they want. So right now my future wife could be ‘anyone’. Instead of focusing on who it is, I center on traits I believe will help me the most to be happy with them. Focus on what marriage means to me and what I want from it. As with any union energy goes both to and from. I give and ‘get’ in our life.

I have written whole blogs on who I see a soul-mate that I welcome as my wife as. I wrote another one what I wanted marriage to be to me. This is all casting a spell through Positive Thinking and the Law of Attraction. The focus is always on myself because that is what is ethical and also it is impossible to ‘control’ anyone else.

The Goddess repeatedly insists to me that Taylor Alison Swift is my future wife. Yes that may seem silly to some but I have gotten past that. Knowing who it is nice but does not change how I live my life. It has to be that way or I become unbalanced and introduce disharmony into myself. I focus on serenity, tranquility, and harmony a lot with meditation and spell kasting.

What is even more important is maintaining the humility of knowing that I can be wrong. So instead of control I simply tell the Lady what I want and let the Goddess orchestrate everything. She motivates, inspires, and guides me to do whatever it is I need to do which is very little. I am exceedingly impulsive and so it is somewhat easy for me to do this.

Still I could be wrong and if I am then I will be shown this in time. I doubt it because the Lady never lies. I may be confused and believing a ‘lie’ but again I very much doubt it. I have three decades and past lives of memories to remind me that I can still be wrong, though. laugh

Realizing that even adults fail to ever really ‘grow-up’ is a part of maturing. When you are a teenager most think of our parents as near god-like. However, really they are just like their children doing the best they can with what they know at the time. Instead of perfect actions, there are only ever beautiful intentions. This is part of why the means justify the end. Act with honor and virtue and whatever your ‘end’ is? is the best outcome for you… even if it can be unfathomably hard to believe at the time.

Life is a sea of possibilities and we are like mermaids and merbutlers swimming through our Tree of Life. Given the ‘mortal’ vantage point of constantly being in the first person, it is easy to become confused and lost. This is why trusting the Goddess is important. Her only desire is to help us reach our destination. Our destination is what we ‘want’.

Everyday the Goddess helps me feel more implicitly, eternally, absolutely, and abundantly I am in l♥ve with, trust, adore, desire, and admire Taylor Alison Swift.

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