The story in my head goes something like this. We pick it up where someone knocks on my front door. I find Tay Tay standing there and she asks something like “are you still single?” I imagine she already knows the answer to that but I say “yes” anyhow. Sarcasm is as poisonous as infidelity, but far less appreciated as such.
Then we go to the Brother’s jewelry store in Richland, Wa and buy a set of rings. White gold with a huge diamond engagement ring for her. I mean this is a fairytale and getting almost any ring will do very little to hurt us.
We are eloping to Las Vegas for family reasons. Then we will have a bigger wedding this Winter after the solstice at the white chapel in Wakiki, Hawaii.
We fly out of Pasco, Washington airport in her G5 plane. I show her the homepage for Moller’s M100x Skycar, and she giggles with delight. Happy funny laugh, instead of ‘you are ridiculous’ laugh.
I sign whatever legal documents she wants me too. Afterall I want a future with her. Money is a verb or adjective instead of something a goal or dream to live for. The Force will provide for those who let it.
On the way to Las Vegas, I respect, admire, and adhor Tay Tay too much to be forward or forceful. She smiles breaks the ice by starting to kiss me. I return the passion and continue kissing her. I show my naivety with kissing in general and she giggles.
Seemingly an awkward moment comes out of nowhere as Tay Tay stares at me in thought. She looks bashful almost, and in a moment she reveals why. She asks if I am a virgin and I respond “absolutely” a giggle filled with relief and delight is her response. Then she tells me she is too.
Though, everyone knows she has had boyfriends that always turned out to be asshats. Maybe that is one of the reasons I kind of skipped the boyfriends stage. lulz She is more experience with it than I am by far. I never really found the right, or good, woman until I met her. Sounds silly given everything but sometimes there really is a diamond in the rough.
A premier honeymoon suite at the Luxor in Las Vegas is already set for us when we get there. We stop buy or room before the wedding, and I put on a new tux.
We go to the chapel. Family probably wishes they could be there but they already made their choice with how they objected to Tay Tay over the idea of marrying me. The Lady has guided me to this point through the Force and I trust Her implicitly, but sometimes it is difficult to see what comes next.
Custom written vows are spoken. We are both writers, though different venues. She writes, sings, and performs songs and I write stories. A lot of negative drama has been thrown at us in life. Mine is just mostly self inflicted. Night is dark and the who/what/when/why/how is irrelevant. We are very similar in our beliefs and how we think. We learn the truth of this even more-so as time marches on.
That is the story that I am writing in my head. I will let you know how the Force ends up responding. It gives me everything else. This is bigger though and not a ‘thing’. I have grown and matured a great deal in a relatively short amount of time.
I focus first on who I want to be. The kind of person I could love. Then I focus on the traits in a wife, that I believe will help me the most to be happy. Then I focus on the marriage and future I want to be.
Marriage is just a word that has different meanings to different people. You ask ten people what it is and you get ten different responses. So I am evolving the events I want to happen to me in my life. That is where the magik is, instead of trying to control other people which is impossible.